What's your biggest fear? Its a simple questions. Some may say spiders, or snakes or heights.
I say failure.
Mostly Momma Failure.
Oliver is at the age where he wants to be independent. I let him spread his wings and try new things, but in the back of my head I am always wondering "is that enough?"
My mind starts to race, I get hot and sweaty and my face gets red when I think about all the things I am doing and worrying if they are the right things.
Is he eating enough?
Does he get enough sleep?
Are we reading enough books?
Should he be around more kids his own age?
TV? Should he watch TV?
Is he growing on track?
All these questions float around in my head and I wonder and I worry and I lose sleep over it.
I just don't want to screw him up.
I read books.
I talked to other Mommas.
Heck I took care of other peoples children for years --
yet when it comes to my own, sometimes I feel so incredibly lost.